she wanted my agony

jocular glower
by Matt Freire

And i don't know about you but i got this little thing to do
And i’m gonna take my time when i talk about this
Because last time we talked you left me with a razor blade kiss

I was laying down only wearing her and i didn't feel naked at all
She mounted up
I felt alive like
intertwined turbine electricity generators
conducting enough power
as to run all the wrist watches in the world
and i lost track of time

And i started sweating on her
her mouth like a respirator
breathing for me
hands like scalpels and retractors
and she makes her fingers as surgical scissors
and she cuts at my chest
exposing my heart

see
She wants to see my agony
this unbeknown till now to me
that her cunning ways only swell
to the proliferating of my agony

her lips like hemostatic forceps
she wanted trauma
like a third degree burn
the slow cancer spreads
her words made out like a troemner hammer
checking my reflexes she swings
and i'm clamped blood hardly moving

see
i like to think
I am i double m you n e
But it stings just a bit when you consistently...
when you constantly...
see
my sanity is definitely defiant
yet i keep my tyrant self in a cage
because you never know when you have to take it off the shelf
see

she wanted my agony
and she knew how to get it
so as a life line i call out to god
and at this she smiles
and incises my ears away as to not hear a response
then sews them to my palms
as if this is a genuine favor
see
she says this is my surgery

You have a god complex i yell at her
she says i have a weak god
and cuts out my tongue
and sews it to my wrists
so i can taste the time
and taste my last drip

she wanted my agony
see
I didn't just fall off the turnip truck, i got dropped off
she was getting mad because i was eating from her private stock
i know that shit was hers but i know it tastes the finest
but she just likes me to ride sitting starving next to fulfillment
she would rather me walk then tell me why
but i know why i could see it in her eyes
see
she wanted agony
yet all i have is pride
I'm a simple minded man
who she should have never let inside

see
i’m now unstitched
sewn freakishly Fighting
the tide of blood spill
Swimming upstream like a solo seasoned trout
who takes a swift paw
and now i reside in the belly of a grizzly bear
see
i cannot bear a transaction like this
see
i cannot stand to let this medical malpractice

Pull it off slowly
Don't look at me!
see you don't look at me
and don't just stand there move around like it’s fun
Why is that still on
turn around
Now those have to go as well
take it off
slowly
see i see you
see you don't look at me
Don't look at me!

i’m full of agony i just don’t like to show it
i’m compromised with doubt
i’m ingested with dilemmas
i’m suffocated exhalation
see
she wanted my agony
and she was willing to go the distance to get it
and she pulled it out kidney stone like
if pain was her goal
she fulfilled it
but see
if she just would have asked
i would have given it to her freely